Christmas Greetings to one and all! Hope you all have a good one!!!!!!!!!!!

By this time I had a really bad cold and was not feeling too good! Went out to see my Uncle and cousin who I have not seen for years in Puddletown and then went to collect my Grandparents and took them down to see David, Laura and Morgan. Dropped off their pressies too. Stayed down there for a few hours and Morgan was so cute! The kittens kept climbing the Christmas tree and one even fell asleep in the tree! Dropped Gran and Grandad off and went back to mums to get ready for the evening! Had a shower then Fiona came to pick us up! Went out to Louises for a couple of hours who cooked us yummy pizza then we went off to the Wetherspoons! Saw all the old gang (laura, Dan, Mark, Rebecca, Pud and Pete!) and they told us they were going to the Firestation. After drinking lots more in Wetherspoons and the arrival and losing of James, we went off to the Firestation to get there before 11 as it was meant to be cheaper! It was actually really cool in there! Enjoying some dancing to tacky music but the bar was so packed it seemed impossible to get a drink!!! Saw more people I knew from school, and eventually gave up at 12.30 and Fiona dropped us home!! A great night! :)

Today was a very lazy day! Dan and I sat around watching TV and played games on sky. I wrapped Dans presents downstairs and sent him upstairs to read!!!! Had Chinese in the evening which was yummy and so filling!!! Had some wine and watched a film before going to bed!

Dan and I got up and he dropped me in Dorchester town centre while he went to Halfords to buy a new car ariel as some idiots had snapped his off in Chippenham! I bought a PS2 for Dan and a stairgate foir David, Laura and Morgan. Saw lots of people in town including Paul Legg, Clare Bedwell and boyfriend Travis, Fiona and Laura Gundry, and Rebecca who was at work so spent alot of time chatting! Inviting Fiona to the pub in the evening. Phoned Dan and got him to pick me up and had to carry all the shopping through town to Charles Street car park and hid the pressies from Dan in the boot! Got back to Charminster and his the PS2 in mums room! Had Chinese for tea! Yummm! Dan drove s in to town again and we went to the Wetherspoons where we met Clare, Travis, Fiona, Greame, Lewis and Simon! Had a nice quiet evening and only had a few drinks! It was good to see everyone again!

Packed up the car with all our stuff and left for Dorset at midday! Arrived home before mum or Mike and hid the presents in our bedroom! Drank some wine with mum in the evening and had an early night!

I woke up at 5am this morning wondering why I get so drunk and do such stupid things? Last night was a total diaster for me and I don’t ever want a repeat of it. The afternoon was lovely and I had so much fun but I reached this point in the evening when I had just had too much and I should have left. I never want to be like that again. I feel so different about myself this morning and just feel ashamed. I want things to be different and I am going to work hard to change things.

Went to Sainsburys in the afternoon and bought some nice food with the nectar points we have saved up and I cooked carbonara which lots of nice ingredients! Yay! It turned out really well and Dan and I spent some well needed time to ourselves. It was a lovely evening!! :)

Made it to work at 9 after walking to with James and going back a few times to get stuff! Arrive at work and do about half an hours work then get an email from Jacki asking what I was doing carrying a top on a hanger down the road this morning!!! He he! Went of to the loos and got ready for the meal, then Judith and I went delivering cards from our team to the other teams!!!! Left for the meal at 11.45 and walked over- it didn’t take as long as I thought it would. The meal was at Bristol Fashion and the food came out very quickly considering there were also 90 of us there!!!!! Had some wine bought for me and couldn’t manage to eat all my food!!! We stayed for a few drinks after too and then managed to go on to various other pubs and seemed to go all over Bristol! We went down to the waterfront for a bit and then up park street. By this time I had been drinking for 9 hours and was in such a state that I was crying. I decided that I made enough of a fool out of myself and left. I cried most of the way and called Dan. He said I should come over to his so I went to Temple Meads where I paid £6 for a train ticket which is very expensive compared to driving! By this time it was 21.50 and the next train wasn’t until 22.45. How stupid. Found the train which was luckily already in the station and sat down in what I later realised was first class. The ticket man checked my ticket at about 22.20 and we hadn’t even left. I fell asleep and was awoken by a police woman asking my name as she was looking for someone! Luckily it wasn’t me she was looking for, and I fell asleep again and was then awoken was before the train left by some random bloke offering me chocolate. I complained to him and his mates all the way home about what an idiot I had made of myself and how boring Chippenham was as they lived there! Talked to other random too then got off the train and Dan was there to meet me! We got a taxi home which only cost £2.70 and then talked for a bit before I was unconscious!!!

Had the worst hangover all day at work and achieved nothing! On a spur of the moment idea, I text Cat and asked if she wanted to do ‘Christmas’ tonight, we worked out we had all the stuff between us so it was set!!! Wrapped Dans pressies when I got home and then when to Tesco and Patco with Cat and got some wine, lemonade and other stuff then she set about doing the cooking! Food was ready by about 8.15 and was yummy! Drank the wine and then managed to finish a bottle of vodka too! James arrived home rather early from his xmas meal when Cat and I were in full flow of listening to Queen, and then Five! Sad! Talked to Gavin and Andy on the phone during the evening and finally went off to bed at 12.30 ish!

A few people at work have birthdays around this time so had arranged a cheese and wine party for lunch!!! I drank too much wine and ate SO much cheese all afternoon!!!!!! Somehow managed to stay at work until 7pm and walked home and rang my mum as it was her birthday. Drank more vodka with James and listened to very tacky music such as Let Loose and Wham!!!! Chatted to Cat for a bit when she got home then went to bed around midnight!